So at this point i'm just completely lost. It feels like everything I am doing should cause me to fail. . .but it doesn't. It feels like i'm not doing anything right. . .but I am? IDK. I do fine for the entire week, then on Sunday I'll go have a dinner with my family and I'll eat a giant plate of lasagna (pasta!!!) and then have a half pint of ice cream (caramel!!). I shouldn't be losing weight. . .but I have. IDK if that's just an increased metabolism allowing me to skid through those weekends or what.
It needs to stop. I need to refocus, rededicate myself to this. I'm trying to have fun with it but achieve a serious goal at the same time. I can't be throwing wrenches into this. It's the life i'll live when I'm done. It just can't be the life I live now. I need to keep pushing boundaries out at the gym. I need to watch what I put into my body. I need to get the ring to Mordor. . .oh wait, that's another guy. Haha. Still, it's time to get down to some srs bznss and pwn some n00b fat cells.
On a side-note, i'm thinking of taking my blog public to my friends and family. I debate on this heavily because I hate to state "this is my goal" and then not meet it. Not to mention I don't want this to be the vehicle for how they learn about me and what I'm doing. I'm not secretive about it - if they want to know I want them to ask me. On the other hand, I wonder if i'm missing out on some support too? I don't think that's likely, but you never know right? Maybe my big wide audience has some thoughts on the topic? Should I broadcast the URL? When? I was thinking once I hit the 50% mark so they can see i'm serious? Anything i'm not considering? What say you internet?
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