Surprises That Please (-3#)

So i've almost certainly had the worst two weeks of eating for this meltdown.  After my week's vacation, I came back determined to get back at it hard.  Battle the iron, wrestle it to a new more violent death, and strangle it with the cord of success.  Instead, I only went to the gym 3 times, pussed out on the cardio only doing 30 straight instead of intervals, and then went out for delicious "bad" dinners twice.  Oh, and I had half a pint of ice cream last night while watching Game of Thrones.  That shit is TERRIBLE for you, but probably the best thing i've ever put in my mouth - period.

So today, I went in determined to make this a week to make the iron my bitch (again) and so far so good.  Except when I went to weigh in, it told me I was down another three pounds.  I weighed myself 3 times to make sure the machine wasn't lying so it wouldn't get another beat-down, and sure enough - i'm down 3 pounds.  Huzzah, guess I get the other half pint on Sunday after all (though I'll probably skip those meals out this time around).

I think the lesson here is that cheating - sometimes - *can* be ok.  It's not a habit I intend to form, and it's not something I'd define as "eat whatever you want in whatever quantity you want once in a while" either.  I'd probably define it more like be reasonable, be responsible and everyone once in a while have some fucking ice cream.

Yeah, that sounds about right.  

In other news, this 3 pound loss brings me to the next milestone.  I'm at -40 and counting.  YEAH!  And victory is just a little bit closer. . .

As I grow closer and closer to my goal, i'm starting to wonder if I should re-evaluate success.  I mean, I never intended to quit when things got hard.  That's not what I want for myself as I believe I would construe that as quitting.  No, instead what I mean is that I should re-define what success looks like here.  If it gets to a point where progress just isn't happening it may be something beyond my ability or willingness to commit to.  Maybe there's something like an ideal weight for my body, and I just don't know that yet.  Maybe what I need is a minimum goal followed by a stretch goal where anything inside that stretch range is ideal?

So in that vein, that's what i'm doing.  I'm thinking 80/20 (90/10? 85/15?) so I keep my original goal, but set it reasonably.  Don't take this wrong - I want my 100.  I don't even intend to stop there if I can - technically it's still overweight for me (hahaha, stupid charts are stupid), but I think it really clearly defines a picture of success and ultra-success.